A Rollercoaster Of Feelings

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Tonight is the night and it’s going to happen again and again.  I’m having what I call “the up feeling”, you don’t know it. Well to keep it short it’s that surge of inspiration and motivation that makes you feel like you could do anything and overcome any difficulties the universe throws at your face. If my calculations are right I get it once a week, and it’s followed immediately by “the down feeling”. You guessed it right it’s the exact opposite of the first one. It’s just that feeling of boredom, discouragement and mostly depression that we love and value. But I fought throw to write this post that will be soon forgotten in this blogosphere.

Just a couple hours ago I was planning on studying much harder and getting ready to start my own business. Amazing ideas were flying in my head, I was gonna create this, invent that … I was just about to start my own t-shirt shop, WOW what an original idea.  I was all hyped-up and excited about it. Last month i was trying to create a revolutionary app that will change the world, and of course make me rich. Believe me I spent hours studying about programming languages, servers, Java, Object-C…

I can honestly say that is my brain was a movie, I’d be blockbuster.

But soon later I was like “It sounds like a lot of works”. That urge was quickly silenced by sadness,  thoughts of “what did I do with my life” and mostly hugger (I get really hungry after all this turmoil) . The roller coaster that is my feelings took a plunge into some dark waters.

What I want scientist to do is take my “up feeling” and synthesize to a drug. So whenever I’m feeling down I’d take a pill and up we go. Wait a minute, I think they already have that drug… its cocaine. Should i start using?

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2 thoughts on “A Rollercoaster Of Feelings

    Susie said:
    March 2, 2014 at 5:41 pm

    I love this post! But I can simultaneously relate to it and scold you for it. haha 🙂 it’s so easy to fall into the mentality of “this will soon be forgotten in the blogosphere” but part of the secret to keeping the “up” feeling is knowing that you DO have something substantial to contribute! I love your writing style and voice. remember, “Everything around you that you call life was made up by people that were no smarter than you, and you can change it, you can influence it, you can build your own things that other people can use.” so screw the down feeling, start the t-shirt shop, design the app, and above all keep writing!

      mesimpel responded:
      March 2, 2014 at 5:47 pm

      First of all I would like to thank you for popping my cherry, you’re my first comment. It’s not always easy staying “up”, sometimes when you’re all alone in your room you just feel like breaking down and sinking in deep depression. What I like about it is that you rebuild yourself again, it’s a great ride.
      And again thanks for your comment.

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